Chris, I have the perfect ski for you, it is the big boy radar ski. It has never been out of the box, (i ordered two) and I will give you a hell of a deal. from one big guy to another, it will get you up, but as you are sitting there dragging ass and dying every time out of the water, use that for your motivation to lose your ass! I have and am still using that for me. What sounds better, and eclair and paying the price to get up, or eating clean, and getting up much easier. Oh, and getting stacked as a big boy brings new meaning to the word, nuts, because, if you are not in the proper position, those otf's are far more painful!!!! So, let me know if you want that ski, and welcome back!!